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23, and I'm happy to be who I am...
Saturday, August 17, 2013
11:59 PM

Twenty-three, and I'm happy to be who I am. I have been through a lot to realize there is a reason and season to everything that happens. I can either move on with my life or dwell on things I can't change, but either way, life does move on with or without me. And so I chose to learn to enjoy every minutes of my life. Be happy now and not wait for something outside of myself to make me happy in future.

The people who shaped my life;
they made me love who I am today.

I'm so blessed'

6 July; When I am being asked to decide what to eat, I will always follow 'what am I craving?' at that moment. Usually, I crave eggs benedict, dim sum, hae mee, kway chap, sandwich, sushi, pasta, pizza, ramen, rosti, you mian, etc but sometimes I do crave BBQ or steamboat buffet.

On this day, I decided to go with Korean BBQ buffet. As I'm less familiar with Korean restaurants in Singapore, Kai Xin voluntarily chose Ssikkek Korean BBQ for our dinner. Upon arriving, the receptionist unintentionally said, "Your friends are here." Immediately, my eyes searched the crowd for somebody that I know. There they were, Andy and Joyce were waiting to join us for my advanced birthday dinner.

I was surprised, actually, I was really surprised. When I found out Kai Xin planned this, I was like, "Wow, you almost did it!" I was completely unaware as we were happily spending the afternoon shopping for a birthday gift to me and yeah we finally found a dress that fits me perfectly. Thank you, sister, I'm so touched.

After the dinner, we chilled out at Starbucks and they presented me with a dozen of macarons - one of my favourite sweet treats. It's really thoughtful of them - because I have to avoid eating birthday cake. Thank you, Andy and Joyce, I'm glad you two came along.

Macarons will absolutely brighten my day!

A simple and thoughtful birthday surprise makes me smile - sometimes, it's the smallest thought that counts. I just want to know that I'm remembered. And I guess being remembered on the annual anniversary of the day on which a person was born can tell if you're special - you make a difference in their lives.

7 July; What do you want to do for your birthday? Right away, I have two places in mind; Adventure Cove Waterpark or Gardens by the Bay. Ever since the first time I went snorkeling, I fall in love with this activity - it is fun and enjoyable. But at the same time, I would love to be standing in awe of nature. Somehow we decided on the latter attraction.

It was a slow relaxing sun-day with my best girlfriends at Gardens by the Bay exploring the cooled Conservatories - Flower Dome and Cloud Forest - on our own. From the moment I stepped into the Gardens, I knew it was a beautiful day to let my stress fade away as we were going on a journey filled with endless discoveries.

We headed over to the Flower Dome to view unique plants from the Mediterranean and semi-arid subtropical regions such as South Africa and parts of Europe.

"Step into the Flower Dome and you’ll be standing in awe of nature. The Flower Dome replicates the cool-dry climate of Mediterranean regions. Home to a collection of plants from deserts all over the world, it showcases the adaptations of plants to arid environments. Stop and smell the flowers in the colourful changing displays of the Flower Field, which reflects different seasons, festivals and themes.

Enjoy a cooling and leisurely stroll through the Flower Dome and experience the eerie profile of the baobabs, surrounded by fascinating succulents. Immerse yourself in the spectacular view of the Marina reservoir skyline. You'll discover amazing plants and flowers from different corners of the globe, and you'll be amazed by how different parts of the trees are used in daily lives across different cultures."

Then, we strolled towards the connecting Cloud Forest and ascended the man-made mountain to enjoy the plants from the Tropical Montane region, between 1,000 to 3,500 metres above sea level.

Cloud Forest

"Enter the Cloud Forest, a mysterious world veiled in mist; entirely different from the Flower Dome. A 35-metre tall mountain covered in lush vegetation shrouding the world's tallest indoor waterfall showcases plant life from tropical highlands up to 2,000-metre above sea level.

Ascend to the mountaintop in comfort by life before descending via two walkways in the clouds for an aerial view of the canopy and mountainside below. Learn about unique biodiversity and geology of cloud forests and the environment threats they face within the nine unique zones in the cool-moist conservatory."









When the night came, we stood in awe of the amazing supertrees that came alive with an exhilarating display of light and sound. It felt like I stepped into moon Pandora, the verdant wonderland depicted in James Carmeron's epic Avatar. I was really impressed by these uniquely designed vertical gardens of 20 to 50-metres tall, situated in the Supertree Grove.

It's dinnertime. We headed to Marina Bay Sands for Bay Sushi; a cosmopolitan Japanese restaurant. I ordered udon, golden dragon roll and lion king roll, as well as camembert cheese croquette to share. The sushi rolls were fresh and delicious - of quality ingredients. I really enjoyed the sushi.


Golden Dragon Roll

Lion King Roll

Camembert Cheese Croquette

It has been awhile since I hung out with them and I really enjoyed myself. Every year, the girls will try their best to accommodate to my wish to explore a place with them. They will always make me feel like a princess on this very special day of mine and I really appreciate everything they do for me.

Gi Siang

Sing Yee


Wee Kiat

To my dearest best girlfriends, thank you for making a difference in my life by adding more joy, fun and laughter in it - lifting my mood, making me feel great, giving me more energy. As I think of our friendship, I begin to see mere words can't describe what it means to me. I'm glad to have you listening to what I say and what I don't say - understanding my silence. Thank you for coming into my life and never left my side. I'll always be beside you too.

9 July; I can clearly remember my last year birthday with the boys. That was a memorable day to me, for it was a simply shocking and sweet surprise. This year I wasn't expecting them to trick me again as they were both planning to meet me. Before Andy said, "My mum had prepared dinner for the family." I was a little disappointed but, then again, his mother rarely cook. I can totally understand his excitement over home-cooked food. Yet again, it didn't feel like coincidence. I tried to convince him to join us after that for dessert/drink. And he said to us, "I secretly want to watch 'The Dream Makers'." I couldn't believe I just heard that. It was a 'fuck my life, okcan' moment.

Jing Long and I still went ahead to Antoinette for my birthday dinner. Upon seeing the menu, he went gaga over the wild mushroom risotto as the boys were so into 'Hell Kitchen' and 'MasterChef' lately. While waiting for our food, I couldn't help but think, where's Andy. But I gave up the thought when our food were served. I focused on our conversation while eating and "BAM!" I literally shouted, "Fuck!" What a shock, Andy appeared with my birthday present. Damm, I got tricked twice.

It was a happy Tuesday night in town with my favourite boys. It has been awhile since the three of us squeezed in some alone time together. All I know is I hold on to memories. When life is too busy, it makes me miss all those nights we spent together - laid in the bed, poured our hearts out and stared at the ceiling, until we said goodnight.

三 個 好 朋 友

To my dearest best guy friends, thank you for accepting me the way I am. Life's been good ever since we met and it gets better as the years go by. The ups and downs of our friendship - it was the best of times, it was the worst of times - have brought us closer together and I believe nothing can separate us. Thank you for letting me be the girl everyone admires - for going the extra mile to make me smile. And do remember, I'm always ready to lend a ear, a shoulder and a hand anytime you need a friend.

12 July; Lovin' my hometown, yes I'm back at Bishan, where most of my close friends are staying. I remember the last time I visited Bishan Park I went to The Cornerstone. With the increasing number of restaurants and cafés surrounded by greenery housed in Bishan Park - Canopy Garden Dining, The Green Room Café, GRUB, etc. I decided to go back for GRUB as everyone is raving about their awesomely yummy burgers, I had to give it a try.

The restaurant has implemented computerized queue system that frees you from waiting in line. Hence, you can take a stroll in the park or take a seat at the nearby bench. That evening, it was crowded and we had waited for approximately 1.5 hours to get a table - they don't take reservations.

Dinner was served. We ordered pork steak burger, grilled chicken thigh burger and risotto, as well as churros to share. I could not wait I was sure I would love their amazingly I-want-to-take-a-bite-but-I-cannot-bear-to-eat-you adorable burgers.

GRUB's pork steak burger has a generous portion of patty and a great synergy of flavours. Their pork steak is really tender and juicy - temptingly tasty. I must say, it is probably one of the best I had and I was happy we made the right choice to wait for our turn in the long queue.


To my dearest sisters, thank you for being in my life - making it beautiful - and never once leave me on my own. Our friendship has kept on growing and I'll be here for you to the end. As we move through different stages of our lives, we will need different support. And for this I'm so grateful, we have our number one piece of advice: Be brave, be strong, continue forward. I guess this is my way of saying thanks for catching me when I fall - for being my good sisters and being with me through it all.

13 July; Back at Gardens by the Bay to take a stroll along the OCBC Skywalk, a 128-metre long walkway with a height of 22-metres that connects two Supertrees at the Supertree Grove. We were captivated by the panoramic views of the Gardens as well as the surrounding Marina Bay area.

And in that moment, a giant Singapore flag suspended from helicopters flew across the Gardens during the National Day Parade rehearsal. Then, followed by an air show that always impresses me. We few, we lucky few, we were caught in a patriotic spirit of the moment.

As it was getting late, we didn't stay longer to enjoy the atmosphere. We travelled to East Coast Lagoon Food Centre to have our dinner - hokkien mee, BBQ chicken wings, BBQ stingrays, stir fried lala clams, sambal kang kong - great for sharing.

Friends don't let friends do silly things... alone.

Friends do silly things together in public.

Being silly with friends is the best therapy.

After the dinner, we took a stroll in East Coast Park where we came across a sand playground. I hopped, they hopped, we hopped on the playground seesaw and tried to balance ourselves with our feet off the ground. It is fun to relive some things we enjoyed doing when we were young - childhood memories. Don't we all miss being a kid? No stress, no worries, just a smile on our faces and simply enjoying our lives.

19 July; And so the conversation went like this: "Josh: I got 'The Singing Bone' hello kitty for you. I: It is S$10 right? Josh: You can pay me a dollar but you need to do me a favor. I: What do you need? Josh: You have to treat me to dinner. I: Uhhhh." Well, he was hinting me that I hadn't seen him for a long time. It is time like this that makes me realize my work is really starting to take over my life - I need to focus more on my relationships with family and friends.

Poulèt @ Vivocity

And so we met on a Friday night. He accompanied me to shop in Francfranc - my favourite furniture store - for a birthday gift to me. However, I couldn't decide what I need/want. Therefore, he decided to treat me to a good dinner at Poulèt - Amazing French Roast Chicken, a casual French restaurant.

Appetiser // Escargot de Bourgogne

Main course // Poulet Roti

Main course // Mediterranean Stew Lamb Shank

Dessert // Tiramisu

Thank you, Josh a.k.a Soo-gu, for walking beside me and being my friend - taking the time to give me the good advices on everything I always want to know. We have formed a friendship that has become invaluable to me. We can talk about our dreams and share our fears. We try to encourage each other in all that we do. Thank you for always believing in me and always encouraging me.

To end off this post..

I can always be your smile. 


TO ALL MY FRIENDS // The best gift I have ever received is the continuous friendships. I cannot even imagine where I would be today were it not for that handful of friends who have given me a heart full of joy. Let's face it, friends make life a lot more fun. Without them, I wouldn't be who I am today - someone who believes in friendship.

They’re the friends who are incredibly different from everyone else I’ve ever came across and most likely more so than those I will eventually meet. The ones I can be doing crazy things with while laughing so hard until we cry. And it's all the inside jokes and remember whens that make us best friends.

They are near and dear to me, they makes me want to commit 100% to these amazing friendships that God has given me. I know I have been blessed just to know them and I cherish every moment with those I love at every stage of my journey.

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